Wow, it's been such a long time since I last visited the forum and there has also been so many changes going on in my life.
So the reason why I just disappeared all of a sudden was because even though I am 22 already, my parents think it is okay to search my phone and read my chats.
So long story short, my mother found out about my sexuality, even though all she found was intellectual conversations about it with strangers and no sexting or whatever it was still a disaster to her.
She tried to get me a therapist who spoke about homosexuality in the most ignorant way possible but at the same time wanted to treat my depression, it was seriously hell.
I was also given limited access to Internet and that explains why I could not be here for long.
So here I am, pretending to be totally straight so that I can avoid trouble until I become independent or find a way to leave this country.
But hey there's a bright side after all, I learned to trust my friends because I talked to them about it and came out to most of them and they all had my back, so it's not that bad.
And now that it has almost 6 months since what happened, I can safely return to posting here. I missed this place .