So, I've been thinking a lot about honesty lately and what that means in Arab/Middle eastern culture. I'm Egyptian and it seems to me through my family that honesty isn't what I thought it'd be at all. My family want's to live in honest moments of fake experiences, they pretend things they don't like do not exist to continue to live carefree with this "honesty" and only pay attention to the details that they actually accept and are interested in. I recently came out to my parents, something I never thought I'd do though I've planned on it since I was a teenager. But yes, I finally came out to them a few weeks ago and I was really happy with their response, they told me they loved me, they'd still accept me and I felt really good about it for awhile. I had been imagining this dramatic argument or even getting kicked out of the house so many times that I felt this couldn't be better, but then I realized what had been bugging me. For some reason I still couldn't feel close to my parents even though they told me everything was okay, but it's because it wasn't. They didn't wanna share the news with any of my aunts or uncles or any other family, none of our friends, etc. They just told me they didn't have to know, it wasn't anyone else's business and it didn't need to come up. Idk I guess I tried to act okay with this but it was actually really irking me on the inside, my parents didn't love me, those were just words. That was the truth of their fake experience, the one they had tricked themselves they were living, what they didn't think about was how real the experience of rejection and humiliation it is for me. I guess I'm just sad, I'm tired of living under these fake feelings where we just have to pretend things are okay or "normal" when it's okay when things aren't. I want to share to see if anyone else has this experience with their family? I feel out of place sometimes because I don't feel the need to lie about my feelings or ideas to assimilate to cultural norms and expectations. It hurts me, it's manipulative, it's dishonest, it makes me feel like I can never trust whether something is really true, or just for the looks of things. .