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I was recently diagnosed (finally) with ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) have been taking medication for it the past two months. I cannot even begin to tell you the difference between my behavior and symptoms before and now.

One thing that surprised me though was...I was a mess. I had mood swings, my mind was whirling a thousand thoughts almost all the time, I had intennnnnse hyperfocusing periods and was beyond easily distracted. But here is why I am writing this topic.

Before medication, I was constantly seeking a friend with benefits and I have had a few online encounters. I am married, bisexual, my husband knows about this and over the years became accepting and even encouraged this. I am still bisexual but the alarming thing is that after being treated for my ADHD, I no longer want to explore outside of my marriage. I can actually...focus on my relationship. I had NO idea what I was doing was being amplified by the ADHD. That I was for a long time seeking to experience my attraction to women so intensely because my brain sought stimulation..because I was uncomfortably bored all these years. It gave me that dopamine hit. I was far more impulsive. I also hyperfocused on it. Which would always burn out and I would lose interest at some point and it wrecked mentally and emotionally and would enter a deep depression afterwards, not to mention it was annoying to others..and I apologize for that.

I never knew how distracted I really was from my relationship. I didn't realize one big reason why I was unhappy for so long was due to this disorder that 4 previous psychiatrists completely missed.

It explains so much..the serial dating, the sexual impulses, the more than average need for intimacy, attention, experience, excitement, risks, drama, danger..alongside all the traditional symptoms I've always had.

I guess I just wanted to share this revelation in case someone might have been struggling like me. Although I suppose that might be rare since my situation is unique.

I suspected I might have ADHD for years for all the difficulty focusing/distractions/hyperfocus/hyperactivity/academic failures/procrastination..etc but never did I expect it to impact my relationships and how I feel about them. Or my emotions in general. Im emotionally stable now. This was so hard to maintain before. Commitment was also a huge fear and overwhelming..now...not so much. I am happier and can appreciate my husband more. I can actually experience the present moment without being distracted by a million other thoughts. It is priceless.

Anyway..thanks for reading my topic..I needed to get that off my chest. Also, October is ADHD awareness month so hopefully I've helped others become aware of this neurobiological disorder.

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  • 17-24_m_w_h2_f1
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    Wow
    I've definitely become more aware of this neurobiological disorder
    is there like a test you can take for diagnosis?

    • 25-34_f_w_h2_f3
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      There are various cognitive tests one can take but they are not all available here and are overpriced and more aimed at children. For Adults however, a qaulified psychiatrist can evaluate your symptoms and give you a psychological assessment to diagnosis you. I went to a good psychiatrist in cairo who happens to have ADHD himself, which I think makes it easier for him to detect it. If you want more info feel free to message me.

      You can also google Adult ADHD symptoms online and take an online test at psychcentral if you are curious. Or visit ADHD forums or ADDitude magazine to understand what it's like for people in their lives on a more personal level. This disorder is VERY misunderstood by the general public and has damaging stereotypes. These symptoms can manifest in a number of ways and it isn't all exactly the same for each individual or gender.

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    • 25-34_f_w_h2_f3
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      Sorry, I am assuming you are in Egypt. If you live in a more resourceful arab country then you mh find those cognitive tests available. However you might not beed extensive testing. If it's really bad it would be obvious throughout your life and impacting your academia, jobs, relationships and daily tasks.

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  • 17-24_m_w_h2_f1
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    Wow
    I've definitely become more aware of this neurobiological disorder
    is there like a test you can take for diagnosis?

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  • Thank you for sharing your experience. I didn't have any idea about ADHD, never heard of it either. To me, your post was very informative. I'm glad you feel better. I hope this is working out for you at its best

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  • hope this is working out for you

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